all i want for Christmas

bemerryLast night I had a series of strange dreams.  First, I dreamed that my family was celebrating Christmas in Arizona.  While we were waiting for the food to finish cooking, Mom and I decided to walk outside with my dog, Georgia.  Mom and Georgia went first, and I followed behind.  So as I’m walking out these sliding glass doors, I see a killer whale jump out of the pool in the back yard and onto the cement surrounding the pool.  It reminded me of how the whales slide on the ice to try to catch the seals, and in that moment my dog looked, to me, like a little baby seal.  All of this happened in slow-motion in my dream, and what followed was mass chaos.  I began yelling at my mom to catch the dog, both of whom were running around the pool like mad men.  Finally, I had to run to catch the dog and yell at the whale to ‘GET BACK IN THE POOL!’  Why he listened, I’m not sure, but he did.  So that was the first dream scenario that tried to ruin my Christmas.

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Then I dreamed that I was driving my car around town when every maintenance light began to light up the dash like our Christmas tree.  I’m certain that all of the lights were fake, but that’s beside the point I suppose.  I think my dream was trying to ruin my Christmas wish and prevent me from traveling home for Christmas.  However, jokes on you, nightmare, because we’re not taking my car home for Christmas; we’re taking Cason’s car, and it works fine.   (Mine does too, for the record.)  Alternatively, the dream could be about how much I dread the 13.5 hour drive home, which would be accurate.  If the cars break down, we HAVE to fly, right?  That would be nice.  Haha.  All I want for Thanksgiving and Christmas next year are plane tickets home.

merryandbrightNeedless to say, all I want this Christmas is to arrive home, safe and sound, and enjoy a nice break with my family.  I want to eat Nana’s creamed corn, have brunch with my friends and go dress shopping, open presents with my family, and make sure my teacup poodle doesn’t get attacked by a killer whale.  That’s not too much to ask for, is it?  Cason and I have so much to do in the next few days just to prepare for the long trek home, but we are excited, nonetheless.  We’ve prepared most of the presents for our families, purchased new Christmas outfits, mailed out Christmas cards, and done all of the laundry.  All that’s left is to clean out the cars, tidy up the house, pack all of our things, and make the journey home.  In just a few days we will be homeward bound!  Until then…

*The images in this blog come from various artists on Etsy.  Click on the images to redirect to the respective Etsy shops.  I just wanted to share some of my favorite holiday prints, as I am personally thankful for some extra traffic in my Etsy shop this holiday season.  Enjoy!

hope deferred

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I got a new email from the human resources department in Beijing today.  Here’s what it had to say:

Although we submitted your applications to SAFEA well over a month ago, they did not start to apply until just a couple of weeks ago. We have to negotiate with them because you are recent graduates and do not have 2 years of work experience. Since our president has had to talk with them about this before, we do not expect it to take as long as last time. We are hopeful to get you here before our March session begins on March 9th, however we cannot guarantee it.

I’ve tried to stay pretty relaxed despite the fact that things are not falling into place quite like I would like them to, but it is becoming more difficult to sit and wait.  I’d be lying at this point if I said I wasn’t frustrated with the fact that the Chinese government is moving slower than I wish they would.  That there is now a potential that I may not be going to China makes me reflect on a lot of things.  I have been thinking a lot about why I wanted to go in the first place and how I would feel about not getting to go at this point.  A lot of hard work and preparation has gone into making this dream a reality and not just on my part.  There are a lot of people who have put in hard work and loads of encouragement to make this trip happen, and I would hate to feel like I am letting them down by not going.  I know that it wouldn’t be my fault and that nothing is set in stone yet.  I’m just doing a lot of thinking, and it would be a huge disappointment on the whole to miss out on this opportunity.

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Over the past couple of years I have come to realize that timing plays a huge factor in how things pan out.  As a result, victory typically goes to the patient ones.  I am not a patient one.  Think about it though.  How often have things fallen through because of the excuse that the timing was off?  It seems there is a fine line between being patient and knowing when to move on.  If the China thing does not pan out by the beginning of March, then I’m afraid that I will have to move on.  Hopefully the timing will work out, but if it doesn’t, then maybe teaching overseas will still be a possibility in the future.

I know I have said that all I can do is pray, so that’s what I’m still trying to focus on.  This is a reminder that the purpose of everything in life is to glorify God and not to satisfy my own desires.  I don’t believe He would have placed this desire on my heart in the first place if something glorifying would not come out of it.  I know that God will continue to do His work over in China regardless of whether I am there or not.  I also know that He will continue to do work in my no matter where I am.  That has also been evident in my life.  So let’s just keep praying for His will to be done and for His name to be glorified above all names.

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Oh, my Nana said I could use the money she saved for my trip to get me a puppy if the trip plans fell through.  So that’s the silver lining.  Here’s a picture of the puppy for smiles: